Martha,

Don't feel sad or guilty, it is natural for you to be frustrated when you are in a job that does not give you a break! Do you have friends and family that can help you get some time off? If you do call them and schedule some time alone or with your husband. If you don't maybe look at hiring a nana to help you few days a week. By experience once the babies past the 9 month mark, they become more aware and busier. I know I always say that my favorite age was from 0 -8 months.
Sometimes when feeling very frustrated I used to make sure the babies were on their cribs, fed and changed and then walked away from the room for 5 minutes, just enough to say a prayer and beg for tranquility. A few days I called my friends (our families are both out of the country), waited till they came in and went for a walk. It will always be challenging and you will be frustrated more than once more, keep in mind that there will be a time when you will miss what you are going through and will look back at it with fondness.

Cynthia gbg-1993