We did talk about it this afternoon. I fully understand his reasoning behind his feelings, and pretty much agree 100%. I guess, it's just the fact I expected to be a mother of 4 children once we found out about the triplets. I just have a hole in my heart for the loss of Eastyn, and I know even if God gave me 1 more child, it would never be Eastyn, so I would be trying to artificially fill that hole.

My husband is like yours, he does worry about the toll a pregnancy takes on me. Bedrest, diabetes, toximia.... He just doesn't want to take anymore chances and loose me as well. I understand completely, it's just my own selfishness and self pitty. But like you, if he gets clipped and I would still end up pregnant, guess it would be meant to be and a blessing.

Thanks for listening.

Kelly

DS~7years
triplets~2years
January 25, 2005 at 33.4 weeks
DS,DD, and ^i^DS