first of all, i don't know if i'm in the right place...i apologize if i am. i just don't know where else to go.

i have 2.5 y/o triplets and was about to give birth to a singleton baby girl this past weekend. on saturday, one day before her due date, i went to the ER with decreased fetal movement, and she had passed away. the next day i delivered her by c-section on her due date.

i am in shock. this wasn't supposed to happen with ONE BABY. i delivered healthy triplets for god's sake (i'm so sorry i don't mean to say it like that)...............with all the high risk, it was there, in my mind with the triplets.........all the risk. i am just so caught off guard. everything was going so well and to lose her at 40 weeks???????????

i just don't know how to even begin dealing with this as life goes on......here i am at home, not pregnant, with no baby, recovering from a c-sec. it's just too much.


Joy- mama to
boy, 3lbs 15oz
girl, 4lbs
girl, 4lbs 1oz
at 32+ weeks on Jan 22, 2005