Thank you so much, everyone, for your kind responses and support.

Steff, I am so sorry you had to go through a very similar experience, but it felt so nice to read your response and have you actually say things that I have been feeling but have been unable to put to words yet...about losing three, and their "tripletness", etc...and all the dreams that go along with them being your first and last, or so I thought, pregnancy. And I do understand what you said about your pain being "so raw I didn't even realize how immense it was because I was in too much pain to feel (if that makes sense)" - I can completely identify with you on that....I think that's exactly where I may be right now. I just don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything....I just want to sleep all the time, and going anywhere takes quite a bit of effort. I can't even really listen to music yet because I'm afraid I'll just cry nonstop. I don't know how many times I've told my husband that I just want to be pregnant again, but with our three boys - I just wish we could have another chance with them....but I know that will never happen. Doesn't help that my milk came in and my breasts have been hard and sore for days now since I left the hospital. Just reminds me of how I'm supposed to be feeding my babies that I don't have.

Thanks for the resources - I think I will definitely ck out that LAMBS group. And I'd also love to hear your story, if you're willing to tell it....Did you personally get pregnant again? That is a whole other thing I'm worried about now....I don't know if I have an incompetent cervix, or if I just went into labor so early because there were three, or what... I have my follow-up appt in early March, so we will be asking tons of questions, but we know they can't give us straight answers on a lot of these things either.

Okay, thanks again....
With love, Kat

Momma to Our Three Little Angels in Heaven - Isaiah, Jacob, and Noah
delivered at 19 weeks 5 days
February 8, 2008