I, too, am sorry for the loss of your sweet sweet babies. I'm glad you came here to post & express your feelings. We all need a place like that. These mama's are so supportive.

I got pregnant (thru IVF) with twins in 2004. I had a smooth pregnancy...no morning sickness, etc. All of the sudden, one night I began cramping. I too hadn't been pregnant before so I didn't know what to expect as far as contractions. I thought I was cramping because I was growing. I slept on the couch that night & tossed & turned. The next morning was Sat. I went to work (I was a hairstylist) & had a super busy day. Sunday morning my DH & I went to church (during those 2 days, I cramped here & there) & when we got home I went to the restroom. When I wiped, it was like nothing I had seen...major discharge & some blood. I called the hospital & they wanted me to come in just to be checked.

We arrived & found out that I had lost my mucus plug. That night I received an emergency cerclage (I was 19 weeks). I was placed on Magnesium & was completely out of it. Two days later they sent me home & gave me Trebutaline to take. The following morning I woke up & told my DH that I couldn't stand up & I was in the most pain I had ever been in. We had to call an ambulance. I was taken back to the hospital & put back on the mag. On Friday, they came in to check my cervix & like you, my DD's sac was bulging & had broken thru my cerclage. So, I went in immediately for another cerclage. By Saturday, my contractions had slowed down significantly & they decided to see how low I could go on the mag without contracting. I started feeling good.

At about 1:30 am Sunday morning (I was 20 weeks), I started contracting & feeling as though I needed to push. There was nothing they could do. I delivered my daughter & son just after 2 am. My DH had called my mom & my dad & called his parents to tell them I was having the babies. They both were born with a heartbeat but not breathing. We all got to hold them.

It was the worst day of my life. They would have been three years old on the 13th of this month. Now, we have 19 month old triplets who are healthy, happy & crazy!!

You will make it thru this. I know it is so very hard. Don't lose hope. You will have really rough days & then days that aren't too bad. Take each day at a time. I'm so grateful for my trio, but I will never ever forget my first love's. I'm praying for you.

Check us out at:
http://thewrighttrips.blogspot.com/

Isabel, Jasper & Jonah were born on July 1, 2006

And my twin angels in heaven ~
Olivia Layne - 2/13/05
Elijah Cain - 2/13/05