My babies were born shortly before yours at a similar gestation. We, too, lost our 'Baby C.' He got sick one morning and the dr. decided he needed to be mediflighted to Stanford for emergency surgery (it was a 2 hr drive and helicopter would be faster). Long story short, we waited six hours for the helicopter arrive, and once it did, it took them 2 to get him loaded on it because they arrived without oxygen or a ventilator! Spencer barely survived the flight and died right after. I, too, struggle with the questions and wonder every day if they had gotten him there faster, would he have made it. It's gut wrenching and sickening and awful. I started digging and what I found really didn't help. Basically, there's no way to know what might have been if circumstances were different. I don't think I'll ever stop wondering, but I'm learning not to let myself go there. It doesn't matter. For reasons I'll never understand, God decided to take my baby then. I feel for you, I hurt with you. You aren't alone.