Nan,

I had a similar problem for a while after I was home from the hospital. For me, I felt like it was shell-shock, almost like driving and being out in the world were just too much to handle. I felt very overwhelmed when I was anywhere on my own and couldn't handle driving on the freeway for quite a while. I felt the need to either been in the coccoon of my house or with my husband because he was the only one who knew how I felt and could talk for me, answer questions, etc. We have a Starbucks near us and I avoided it for the longest time because I hated when they asked "how are you today?" because I couldn't bring myself to say "good."

Just be patient with yourself, the best advice I ever received was that all I needed to do was put one foot infront of the other. That was all I could do at the time but slowly you will find yourself better able to get through each day.

Jessica
Mom to Parker, McKenna, ^Hadley^ born 10/9/07 28w5d
little brother Sawyer
and big sister Ashlyn
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