Or a beer...hee, hee! Hey, at least I can joke.

I feel absolutely defeated by my kids. I feel like I have no control and that they run all over me. For the love of God, they are only 2 1/2! I know everyone goes through this. I just need to know that I will survive and that one day...I know it may not be for a long long time, but one day, things will be a bit easier.

It is the constant screaming of "NO", the constant disobeying & doing it right in front of my freakin face after I tell them no. It is the constant toy stealing from Jasper or pesterting from each of them. It is me not knowing how in the hell to handle situations. I'm so wishy-washy on discipline because I have no idea what to do. If I spank them, I feel bad. Plus, it doesn't seem to work. I've been putting them on the couch & making them sit by me. I tell them what they have done is not nice. They get up & the same thing happens again & again & again. I'm sick of the non-eating. I feel like they look so skinny.

I left the room today when I thought I was gonna go ballastic. I came in to the kitchen & said the "F" word probably 10 times. I never used to cuss...much...but now I'm like a sailor. I don't want to be. I honestly sit here & think..."Oh my Gosh..my kids are going to be the ones in school that are horrible." Did you all feel this way at one time? I don't want to be the mama with bad kids. I don't want my kids to disobey & scream & throw tantrums & push kids & take toys. I don't want that.

So what can I do? Just sit here & pray constantly that the day will come when things are settled down? Find a discipline tatic (even though I have no clue) & stick with it?

I need some love, mama's

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Isabel, Jasper & Jonah were born on July 1, 2006

And my twin angels in heaven ~
Olivia Layne - 2/13/05
Elijah Cain - 2/13/05