I have to let this go somewhere and unfortunately for you all this is it. I am miserable and exhausted. My ex is not taking the kids because he has no electricity and no full time job to pay his bills. What he pays me barely allows us to survive. The internet will be cut this week, I have no phone. I was in the middle of job hunting in order to help me get out of this financial mess and now no phone in case someone calls. I barely have enough food in the house to make it. I have to have the girls potty trained by Aug. 21 for 3 year old daycare and it is not working. It will cost me over $800 a month in childcare which takes up at least half my salary. I get no help for daycare from the ex because he will only work part-time at 41 years of age. It has been about a month straight with no break at all 24/7. I have put myself last for everything including going without eating for the day. I have cried all day over my situation. I can't get a job until school starts for the girls so I have someone to watch them. At the very bottom of the list I am incredibly lonely. I can't get out to visit friends because it takes gas money. My house is a disaster and today when I was trying to shower the girls got in the food cabinet and ate all the pretzels, crackers and left over birthday cake. No snacks for anyone now. I long for the days when I had someone to care about me and love me. Would I go back to the jerk? No way. I am at my wits end and don't no how long things will last this way. Not looking for sympathy, just release. It's hard to hide this from friends and family. I have very little family to begin with and the friends are dwindling. I imagine it's because I can't do anything for anyone or visit with anyone. I am stuck in my house day after day with no end in site. The fertility clinics should be held responsible for not giving us enough information about what multiples will do to a family. I love my children. But this is all taking such a toll on the whole family. My 6 year old is miserable because I can't even call her friends to have them over to visit.

Thanks for listening.


a worried, terrified mom on how this will work out
MOM to a 6 year old and 3 year old triplets-all girls

I am so sorry you and your children have to endure this. I would definitely contact your social security office and get all the help/assistance you and your family deserve and need. Remember this too shall pass!!!
I wish you all the best & I will keep you in my prayers.
All my love, Lynda
Mom to Alexa, Gianna & Louis Joel
born 28.3 weeks - 5/20/06

I posted this about 2 years ago and someone has bumped this up. I can't believe things got so bad for us and just how low I sounded in this post. I can update to say that finances are as always a struggle. My oldest daughter will be in 3rd grade this Fall. She is at a public school where I used to teach. The triplets will be starting full-day kindergarten there as well in the Fall. My sister came to live with us a year ago in Feb. She has been such a blessing. My friends joke that we have the perfect marriage. She handles the money, the cooking, the laundry, and errands. I do the yard work, handle the kids, and do the house cleaning.(I'm getting a chain saw as my early birthday present for when I turn 40 on the 23rd of June). My sister is in her mid 40s and childless by choice. Yet she came to live with us at a time when things were so very bad. And we are making this work. When I went to pick up the girls from their Dad's house today Abby started crying because her Aunt was at work and not in the van with me. Keeping my house has been a huge juggle. I was hospitalized for 2 weeks last summer. I am pooped at the end of each and every day. But I am happier than I have ever been. I love the help and support that I have gotten from this website and MOMs in my own city. My church has been amazing. And neighbors even more so.

I think I am a perfect example of handling things that God places in front of us. I am so eternally greatful for everything I have, for my sister, and most of all my beautiful, smart, amazing children. What blessings God has granted me and my family.

Best wishes to all,

Kristina
divorced MOM
Megan 7/26/00 Blessed Adoption
Abigail, Brigid, Caroline 6/28/03 IVFers 34w3d

Kristina
divorced MOM
Megan 7/26/00 Blessed Adoption
Abigail, Brigid, Caroline 6/28/03 IVF

www.tripletsplus1.blogspot.com

i am so glad someone bumped up this post and you took the time to update us. you're right, you are a wonderful example of someone who isn't defeated, and how wonderful to hear of your church being the Body of Christ in action, and your neighbours being the hands and feet of love. your sister sounds like such a blessing.

thank you again for this update.


tess
mummy to 6yr old ds & the triumverate born 2004

"the days are slow but the years fly by quickly"

I am sorry this got dredged back up Kristina but glad to hear things are turning around for you. We all have bleak times. I really admire how single mothers can pull themselves up and make it work for their children. Things can't be easy but it sounds like you will move heaven and earth for the love of your children. Your sister sounds like a wonderful addition into your home at the right time. I wish you all nothing but the best in the future.

Tasha
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I'm so happy for you that things have started to go uphill. Take care, God gives us strength we thought unimaginable.

*MAGGIE*

glad to hear it! didn't realize this was such an old post...

God bless!

I'm guilty of responding before looking at the original post date. Now and then when I log on here, all the threads are listed by a different category than I ever had them before. This time, it was all by poster names.

Why does that keep happening?

By the way, I asked where you lived becasue I wanted to call a local Nazarene church to see what they could do for you.

Surviving husband to Tammie who passed in March of 2009.
Now married to Nina.
Father of Samantha Nicole, Kayla Shea , and Dominic Paul born on 10/14/02
Step-father to Kristina Nicole born on 09/24/85
Grandfather to Riley Faith born on 5/13/06
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Man this must have been odd to see this. What a blessing your sister is and what a great Mom to hold your family together. Your testimony is amazing.

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