Last Saturday was my babies 36 week due date. It's funny how that day itself was not the most difficult for me. But the days before and after have been tough. It doesn't help that many of my friends were due around the same time and are now holding newborn babies in their arms. I am so happy for them, but so sad at the same time.

We have pictures of our boys that were taken in the hospital while we were holding them and saying goodbye. I just look at them and think of what could have been. Those poor little guys just didn't have a chance... man I miss them.

A good friend of mine left a sweet message for me on the boys due date. She said that as much as I miss them- they too are eagerly awaiting the time when they can meet ME! I guess I never thought of it that way- and it brought so much comfort to my heart. I just wanted to share that because I think it may do the same for some of you as well.

Also, when my hubby and I got home from going out of town, I was presented with a beautiful ring with three little garnets- to represent my boys who were born and died in January- that is also my birthstone. My family members all pitched in and bought it for me. When I saw it I started bawling- they blessed me so much. I love my ring- it reminds me of my three little jewels waiting for me in heaven. I never used to think of myself as too sentimental- but this ring means so much to me- and I just want to tell everyone what it stands for. To tell them that there were three baby boys who I thought were supposed to be with me- who are now in heaven- just as real and beautiful as ever. What a joyful reunion that will be!

holstroma
My three beautiful babies,
now with Jesus...
^Joshua Ronald^ 1/3/07-1/3/07
^Caleb Christopher^ 1/12/07-1/12/07
^Nathaniel Gregory^ 1/12/07-1/12/07

I'm so sorry to hear how hard its been for you. I know that pain all to well. What brings me a little tiny bit of comfort is knowing like you that we will see our babies again and that their time in heaven now is like a second to us. The hard thing is that time takes long here on earth. I'm torn with that, being pregnant wanting to see my babies again so badly. I also totally know what you mean about having something to represent the triplets. My husband and I ordered a beautiful puff heart pendant with the inscription of our babies names on it and forever on the front. It somehow comforts me.

What a beautiful family you have to be so thoughtful. Please tell them that for me. Cause that is so precious. I've been struggling my family relationships. My brother who happens to be a pastor has only called me one time to see how we are (after the funeral)and then he recently called to tell me my mom was safe on her vacation but didn't even ask how we were doing. He was delivering a message. My sister asked me how Easter was and when I said not good I was at the cemetery, she said oh, for dad. She then told me she forgot about my babies. I haven't heard from her since.
My mother-in-law thinks I should be over the death of my babies already. Yesterday was Five-months since their birth and its not even five months since their death.

You are truely blessed to have such a loving family! They sound wonderful. That support is so important. Just wanted you to know how special you and your family are.

Raquel
Mom to triplet angels: Sophia, Steven Jr. & Xavier b/d 25w4d (11/26/06, & Sweet baby Joseph (11/14/07-11/14/07)
Eliana Grace-God has answered
Born 4/03/09

Im sorry about your babies and the recently passed due date... the ring is such a beautiful idea, I have been thinking what can I do, buy, etc to represent my triplets... I dont have anything of the three of them together, just my ultrasounds and I cant find them!

I too find comfort that I will be with my babies again...(well, I have to work hard in order to go to heaven). I have always been afraid of death, but them being there, took that away. And as someone told me, you will recognize them when you see them because they will always be in your heart!

Wishing you comfort and peace,

Monique
Mom to 26.5wk triplets, born 09/14/06
^Nicole^
^Daniel^
Nathalie

I understand what you are saying. Today mine would have been 32 weeks. They would have been safe from what they died from. It does not feel like 8 weeks have gone by. I feel like I am in a terrible nightmare but every morning I wake up I am reminded that it is all true. I am sorry you are so sad. I hope that it gets easier soon. I am not sure when that happens. It just seems to be getting worse for me. Thinking of you...

Rachel

Rachel - mother of four...forever
^Jaxon^ (3/2/07-5/29/07)
^Courtney^ (3/2/07-3/8/07)
^Colin^ (3/2/07-3/8/07)
23 weeks 6 days
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