As my triplets grow older, I find myself thinking more & more of their brother & sister. I think now that I'm kind of settled into this whole motherhood thing, I often wonder what it would be like if I had the twins here as well. It would be crazy, but I think how cool to have my 2 daughters & 3 boys.

My twins would have been 3 this Feb. 13. It is coming up quickly & it seeems so long ago yet it also seems like yesterday. I was going thru my closet & pulled out the storage container I have for Elijah & Olivia. I looked at the pictures from the hospital & I sobbed. It has almost been 3 years, but I think I have only looked at those pictures 3 or 4 times. When I opened the box this time, I thought it would be a little easier. It wasn't.

I still remember every detail about their birth & death. I try to visit them as much as possible. I feel bad because I'm so busy that it is often hard to get out there. Wow! So much emotion. I've just been thinking about them a lot. Thanks for listening.

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Isabel, Jasper & Jonah were born on July 1, 2006

And my twin angels in heaven ~
Olivia Layne - 2/13/05
Elijah Cain - 2/13/05

We can only hope that the pain lessens each day but our hearts will never feel the same. Even now my survivors are still in the NICU. I cannot go and see them very often either. I feel guilty but it does no good to beat us up over it. We do what we can. I am sorry for you loss may your heart heal one day.

Our little angel
^Alex Joseph^ (11-4/11-5)
Brennan Matthew
Christian Jacob

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Big brother Justin 8

It's a strange thing, grieving these little ones that should be with us, particularly with other little ones at home.

For me the pain began to lessen a bit at the three year mark - but I'm sure it's different in your situation where you lost both your babies. As you watch your children on earth grow and develop you cannot help but be reminded of the two that you didn't get to see reach the same milestones.

It is natural to wonder about what should have/could have been. Please don't feel bad about how often you visit their gravesite. You are busy and they are not there, they are far more with you in your heart than they are in a graveyard. The grave is the physical memorial of their existence and because of that you may feel comfort in visiting there but please do not feel guilt when you cannot.

I wish you comfort in your grief, especially as Feb 13 comes closer. I hope that, over time, you will find the pain to be less sharp and to come less often.

Peace.
Marie

I am so sorry you have to go through this. I lost my 3 kids in a car accident in May of 2007. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about them. I try to stay strong by imagining the day I get to be with them again.
Try to stay strong for your other babies. You will always have 2 special angels watching over you always.
Lori

Forever Our Angels
Kyle, Emma and Katie

Lori:

You remain in my prayers for all good things. Your loss is still so fresh that you are still going through all of the "first" things. The first year is truly the roughest in grieving. I pray that you will be comforted, and that you will have strong, healthy, feisty little babies in the next 16 to 20 weeks. I'm personally pulling for you.

Fondly,
Cat w/3 Kittens
Caidan, Carina and Caeleigh
Born at 31 weeks, 1/8/04.
It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all. In memory of Carina, who was greatly loved.

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I am, again, so sorry for your loss. Last year was still a very difficult birthday for me, so I understand how new this still feels. I pray that you will have peace as their birthday and the anniversary of your loss passes.

Cat w/3 Kittens
Caidan, Carina and Caeleigh
Born at 31 weeks, 1/8/04.
It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all. In memory of Carina, who was greatly loved.

http://b3.lilypie.com/bDA