It's been quite some time since I have come onto this website. I had to stop coming for awhile as I would be so much more sad when i saw what everyone else was going thru when i was in the middle of my own grieving. ANyway- I'm back because we just decided to try IVF again with some of our frozen embryos. A few weeks ago we put back two of our embryos and I just had my pregnancy test come back negative. It hurt so very bad and I didn't even understand why it hurt so bad until I realized that it brought back alot of feelings from the loss of our boys. Anyway it looks like we now have one more shot at IVF with our remaining (3) frozen embryos. Yes, there are three left... This will be a huge step of faith if all three survive the thaw and are put back. Can anyone relate to this? It's so hard being the only person I know who is going through IVF and still grieving the loss of babies. We have yet to be "earthly" parents and we want our baby(ies) so badly. I can just see them in my heart and I know they will come in the right time. Further- it seems nearly every woman I know is pregnant or trying to have a baby and it seems so easy for them. I don't want to get on a self-pity kick here I just was hoping someone could relate- or at least has a "success" story to share.
Trusting, asking God for my hope to be renewed...
Thanks for any helpful comments- Alyssa

holstroma
My three beautiful babies,
now with Jesus...
^Joshua Ronald^ 1/3/07-1/3/07
^Caleb Christopher^ 1/12/07-1/12/07
^Nathaniel Gregory^ 1/12/07-1/12/07

I can't give any advice but you may want to post this on the other board. I hope that you will be blessed soon.

Our little angel
^Alex Joseph^ (11-4/11-5)
Brennan Matthew
Christian Jacob

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Big brother Justin 8

Check out IVF Connections .com There is an IVF after pregnancy loss bb that could very much be of support to you.

My prayers are with you. I hope you are soon to be earthly parents.

Erika

Edited to add:

sorry, it's IVF connections . net


there is one lady getting ready to cycle again who lost her triplet daughters last year...you two could possibly help each other...

Mom to:
Matt (1991) Megan (1994) and ^Eric Jr^ Levi and Vivian (2003) at 26 weeks
http://survivingtripletsandteens.blogspot.com

Alyssa,

So sorry for your BFN. We have been ttc again since Sept. We have been through 2 FETs (Sept/Oct and one in Dec). We also just had a BFN from a fresh cycle in Feb with only one to freeze. We are about to start another fresh cycle. There is a thread on fertilethoughts.com for ttc after the loss of a child. It is kind of slow right now because it doesn't have a BC, but I have been thinking of taking it over. I am thebrg on there too. I hope to see you there.

Also, I have a website that has some infertility support things on it. www.tripletbutterflywings.com

If you want to talk or need anything please email me at
rmcconathy@tripletbutterflywings.com

Best of luck! Hopefully we will be pregnant together soon!

Rachel

Rachel - mother of four...forever
^Jaxon^ (3/2/07-5/29/07)
^Courtney^ (3/2/07-3/8/07)
^Colin^ (3/2/07-3/8/07)
23 weeks 6 days
www.tripletbutterflywings.blogspot.com
www.themcconathys.blogspot.com
Kenzington Rae 12/26/08
Born at 36 weeks after 5 months of

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Alyssa,

I haven't done IVF. I was able to get pregnant via IUI with injections every night. I lost my triplets and then got pregnant twice after. I lost both. Unfortunately, my last pregnancy was at 18 weeks, when my water broke. Its been four months since that loss and 16 months since losing the triplets and we are going to start trying one more time. This is our last hope. Our Pernatologist is going to give me a cerclage and place me on bedrest after 12 weeks. I feel helpless. But I keep hoping. I don't even know if I will get pregnant. It is so scary. If you are not on a time frame, I would really take my time. If I wasn't in my late thirties, I think I would wait. After losing my triplets I felt compelled to start trying again after three months. But I was a complete wreck. I'm in a much better state of mind now. Please email me if you want. I have a new email address: 1234angels@live.com

God Bless and big hug,

Raquel
Mom to triplet angels: Sophia, Steven Jr. & Xavier b/d 25w4d (11/26/06, & Sweet baby Joseph (11/14/07-11/14/07)
Eliana Grace-God has answered
Born 4/03/09

Hi

I am sorry for all the pain that you have had to go through. Please have FAITH! My beautiful angel, Abigail, was stillborn at 40 weeks after an uncomplicated singleton pregnancy. No definite medical explanation can be given. Less than a year later I gave birth to identical triplet girls at 36 weeks. This pregnancy, I was told, would most likely not be a success - do you want to terminate?. We consider them to be a gift - a miracle!

A friend of mine lost twins (IVF) at 12 weeks. She is now 6+ months pregnant again with twins (IVF).

Miracles and gifts do happen. Please have faith.....

Sarah

Spontaneous identical triplets born April 2007 at 35 weeks, 6 days:
Baby A - 5 lbs, 3 oz
Baby B - 4 lbs, 13 oz
Baby C - 4 lbs, 13 oz

Sarah's blog: http://thegreatumbrellaheist.blogspot.com/

Rich's blog: http://runningwithtriplets.blogspot.com/

We did FET we had 4 - 6day embryos, 3 made it and now I have 3 beautiful 2yr old BGB triplets. We did accupuncture before and after the transfer. God bless you Alyssa.

I, too, went through a FET while my babies were young and I was grieving the loss of Carina. The transfer did not take and it broke my heart. These were the last of my frozen embryos that matched my babies and would have provided a sibling and/or twins and/or triplets. It was like reliving the loss and the hurt, despite the fact that this was not the loss of a known conceived baby.

I completely understand your hurt.

I will be praying that your transfer is successful.

Cat w/3 Kittens
Caidan, Carina and Caeleigh
Born at 31 weeks, 1/8/04.
It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all. In memory of Carina, who was greatly loved.

http://b3.lilypie.com/bDA

Alyssa: Please do not give up hope. I went through IVF and lost a baby at 10 weeks. I was devastated and cried myself to sleep for months, but I am so glad that I trusted God and tried again because I was ready to give up. At 10 weeks again, I started bleeding and feared the worst to only go to the hospital to see baby a,b,& c jumping and moving around as if they were saying, "mommy this is just the beginning of us, scaring you". On May 20, 2006, God blessed me with 3 beautiful children. I went through the same "self-pity" kick too and there is nothing wrong with that & I totally understand how you feel. Unless you go through IVF (or any method of trying to conceive because you cannot), no one else understands. I am so glad I had my cousin at that time to talk to because none of my friends understood. I even had 1 friend who has 3 beautiful boys complain to me that she wanted a girl when all I wanted was a baby. I also ran into a girl recently who was going through IVF the same time I was and lost a baby. She now has triplets herself. Please trust in God. You will be a mom!!!! If you ever need to vent or talk, please email me. All my love,
Lynda
Mom of Alexa, Gianna & Louis Joel
born 5/20/06 at 28.3 weeks.