Do you ever feel like you have a constant black cloud over your head? Im sick of the roller coaster ride. Mike called me yesterday (he is about 3 hours away at a job - that is ending this week), and proceeded to tell me that he had an accident at work. He says he is ok, and he did not break any bones, but he had to be rushed to the ER because a steel beam fell on his leg (crane operator mistake) and his calf was pierced/sliced to almost his bone by the beam below him. He doesnt want me driving out there but I want to see him so bad, he is just sitting in the hotel room waiting for the guys to finish the job today and drive him and his truck home. I know it could have been worse, believe me, many thoughts have rushed around my head, but Im so tired of the constant battering and crap that happens. Cut me a friggin break, for once....I just hope I can be strong enough for him when he gets home. Just about 2 and half years ago, he had a career ending accident, he was a commercial diver and got "the bends", and he could have died from it...so those feelings came rushing back also. When will it ever get better for us? I feel like screaming like a kid and temper tantruming. So instead I sit here crying at my desk yesterday and today - better get it out now so I can be strong for him when he gets home. I just needed to vent ladies - thanks for listening. xo Nan

Nan~
In loving memory of my beautiful girls:
^Shelby Lee^, ^Megan Aimee^ and ^Lynne Barbara^,
March 6, 2009, born at 20 weeks, 0 days.
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I had this long reply before my computer decided to restart on its own...grrrr. Anyhow, I agree. I think we all deserve to be spared from any additional heartache or bad circumstances. However, it isn't going to happen. When Jaxon was still in the NICU I returned home after a late visit completely exhausted. The next morning we got back up early to go see him and guess what? Some A$$ decided to break my car window to steal my phone that had slipped out of my purse the night before. It sucks...it all sucks. However, in these dark moments of added misery we have eachother to lean on, k? I am glad to hear Mike is okay. Hey...does this mean some paid time at home for you two? That would be nice...

Rachel - mother of four...forever
^Jaxon^ (3/2/07-5/29/07)
^Courtney^ (3/2/07-3/8/07)
^Colin^ (3/2/07-3/8/07)
23 weeks 6 days
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Kenzington Rae 12/26/08
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If its not one thing its another. I'm so sorry he's hurt and you are so far away. I told you about Shawn's injury in Iraq. He was hurt on Dec. 9th he didn't get back home until the 23rd. Its so hard to be separated when he's been hurt. And after losing your precious girls it would be terrifying to have something threaten his life as well. But I'm glad he's okay. And like Rachel said maybe he will get some paid time off.

Stephanie
Mom to Riley, ^Kenzie^ 10-16-08
^Pat^, and ^Abby^ 10-30-08

Nan,

I do feel that way too sometimes. I think can't I just have break or can't something go smooth...I am so glad Mike is ok. It will definitely be better when you can see for yourself and help him. How frustrating it must be to know he's hurting yet so far away. I know you will be strong for him but it's still ok to cry. The two of you seem to be so supportive of each other which will get you through things together. Please vent here any time. I may not have the right words but will always listen. Hanging there Nan, will say extra special prayers tonight for the two of you!

Dana

Jacob, Olivia, Benjamin
30 weeks 1 day

Thanks for your support ladies! It sounds like we all have or have had it a bit rough, and all we can do is keep trucking along.

Hubby is home and in bed resting. Other than being in obvious pain, he is ok, and most importantly alive. Mentally, I could not bear another tragedy. I hate not knowing what lies ahead - I wish I could tell the future. Im sure we all wish that. On the bright side yes, he will be home on workmans comp - its not a full check but its something, and he's HOME

On a kinda strange but better note, in my mailbox today was a large pink piece of paper with writing on it. It was our message on the babies balloons that got stuck in our neighbors' tree. It must have fell somewhere they could see it and they put it in our mailbox....my heart lifted when I saw that. So many ups and downs and turns through it all. Glad I am not alone.

Thanks again! Hugs, Nan

Nan~
In loving memory of my beautiful girls:
^Shelby Lee^, ^Megan Aimee^ and ^Lynne Barbara^,
March 6, 2009, born at 20 weeks, 0 days.
http://rememberingourtripletangels.blogspot.com/
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