Its just one of those days that I can't stop crying. My DH and I are divorcing and I will be a single mom of 2.5 year old triplets. Right now we are living in the weird alternative universe of living in the same house. Economically we just can't afford to support two households until I find work or sell the house. The house is listed for less than we paid but given the market, who knows when it will sell.

I was doing ok for a while but I just heard that I got a second interview for a full time position. I know this is good news but it just means all of this may actually happen. I am currently a SAHM - a job I LOVE more than anything. I was of "advanced maternal age" when I had my kids and did the whole career thing already. I can think of nothing I want to do that excites me like being home with my kids excites me.

Now I am facing leaving my kids all day everyday, moving somewhere, having to find daycare, doing it all alone. . . .

No the marriage won't be saved, yes we tried counseling for months until he up and walked out of one of the sessions, yes we are being civil in front of the kids (actually we don't fight at all we just ignore each other unless the kids are around), and yes we are trying to find a way throught this mess without permanently scarring our kids.

I'm just so scared and tired and emotionally and physically drained by all of this.

Someone tell me I will survive this hurt and my kids will be ok.

Suzanne

Suzanne,
I'm glad you posted and I agree with the PP's. This must be one of the hardest times for you, as seeing each other must be so painful. I hear you when you say you are not as excited to go to work as stay at home ... I think a lot of moms feel that way. You will still have quality time with your children. Your children will still know how much you love them and - I say this in kindness - they might enjoy time at childcare. My kids are older and although they tell me at times they don't want to go to school etc, they are always upset if they miss something there. I hope you can find encouragement and support through friends or a support group as you deserve it right now.
Wendy